alright just before i begin this post i just wanna wish yj a BEARY HAPPY BDAY (: and you shld too! okay i think yj is baking brownies (oh my) with timo and shiwei right now, so i hope his kitchen has been insured. and shiwei! you'd better bake yummy brownies and not let me down k! and to timo, 8cmX8cm! dont forget =P

okay anyway enough about my superman figurine bf! hurhur. wanchee why are you taking photos of him =P as of yesterday, his face has been disfigured with the addition of a large question mark =( but nvrmind.

today somethings happened, some things which i had been trying to ignore for quite some time already but everything just came bursting through. im sorry for slightly taking it out on you, but you shld know where you went wrong too. if you still care that is.

was just reflecting about how we always say 'it doesnt matter' in our lives. when pple trespass us, when pple ask us when they know something is amiss. i thought abt the times i've said 'it doesnt matter', sometimes, it really doesnt. other times, it does, but i dont want to let the person know. .hmm. perhaps a good enough friend would be able to discern between when it does and when it doesnt. then again, sometimes it only matters for that short period of time..so its not worth letting the person know either. okay im confusing myself and probably confusing you too.

anyhow, most of the time it really doesnt matter after some rational thoughts. because everything in the long run, evens out pretty well and settles in the matured way. thank God for that, because each time i feel it does matter, He'd remind me that the joyful way out is the path He wants me to take. to be open about things, to be positive, to be understanding, to be caring, to give pple the benefit of the doubt, to see everything the way Jesus would :)

to smile. recently i've noticed some pple have really cute and charming smiles too, esp pple who dont usually smile much. but even for those who do, its still amazing nonetheless :) its wonderful how a little curved line on a face can bring about so much silent love to a person's day.

so smile, because the world loves it.